At first, I was like 'This is a lucky dude.' Then I started to think some more. Is heartbreak really such a bad thing? I changed my mind. I think it's the best thing you could ever go through ... ONCE.
Heartbreak is such a beautifully painful experience. Obviously, going through hurts like all living hell. The sleepless nights. Puffy eyes. That nauseating feeling in your stomach every time you think of your lover in the arms of someone else. Shit sucks, yo! But good God didn't it make you a stronger lover? A stronger wife? Husband? Person?
To have the one person you entrusted your heart to just up and leave you? To have your confidante, your best friend and lover tell you they don't care anymore? To cry and beg them to love you back just to be shut down with the coldest eyes? HEARTBREAK IS SO RETROSPECT-FULLY BEAUTIFUL. When you feel this, this means you invested so much. Loved so hard. Gave so willingly. You LOVED.
Could you imagine being with someone, investing so much of yourself, your heart, your future with someone with a lackadaisical approach to love? So relaxed. Methodical. Logical. There is no logic in love. NONE. NONE! If you can sit down and give me logistics of why you're with someone, chances are Y'ALL WON'T LAST. Judge me. Ine care. I wanna be with someone and when someone asks me, 'Why are y'all together?" .. I want my only answer to be, "Because we love each other." That's it. Not because he's cute or funny or is handsome ... I just love him. And I can't fully explain it.
Call me crazy but I'd like to be with someone who's been heartbroken. Who doesn't look at love through rose colored glasses. I want someone who'll fight tooth and nail to keep me because they refuse to be heartbroken again. I want that strong love. Crazy love? Maybe so. But I don't want the basic fairy tale. Sheltered princess meets Prince Charming and they live and love happily ever after. Keep it. I want the man who's been hurt like all hell. Because I know he is capable of loving someone with all their heart. Mind. Body. Soul. Someone who loves like me.
I gata go ... can't talk about this much longer or I'll get way too emotional. But one of my favorite Lady Gaga quotes sums this entire thing up: "I want the deepest, darkest, sickest parts of you that you are afraid to share with anyone - Because I love you that much."